Relearn what you have learnt

You must learn and relearn what you learnt in the first classes. You have ear issues. Your hearing is less and you feel a blockage .You still have not got rid of your guilt feelings. You can benefit alot in the 'shishya mode'. As a disciple you surrender and thus you gain. That's why you keep your hands open , palms pointing to the sky and fingers to the Guru. Thus you gain more since you have surrendered from you mind and body.The more you are connected to the universe , the more your radar is tuned to the Guru's radar , the more you will realize your powers and become more and more confident. All the guilt feelings will go. You are also like a God. The Vedas say ‘Aham Brahmasmi’. Yes, you are God and you need to realize this truth . The faster you feel and experience this truth, the more you gain. As the cool vibes flow into you , you will feel the hearing coming back and the blockages disappearing. This is just a micro level phenomena. All blockages from your heart, soul and being will gradually disappear and you will be so connected to the universe through your Guru. The Guru is like a spiritual mother who wants her child to grow and prosper and touch the skies and rise in both stature and self realization.

Never feel guilty of anything . What has happened ,had to happen. If  Bhoomi Devi starts thinking that she has lost all her children and resources because of the tsunami, natural forces would cease to play . These things have to take the natural course. Krishna never felt guilty of his relations with gopis or with anything that he did. Because his intentions were pure and they could be interpreted in any way by anyone. He was always very confident, in fact an embodiment of confidence. Since you are into dhyan , you are also getting qualities of the Gods . Realize that you are like God. Do you also need someone like Jamvantji in Ramayan to tell you of your powers?? Feel the powers within you and never feel guilty of any acts. Realize that there is no difference between Ram and you or Jesus and you. Do intense meditation and start feeling like this from the core of your heart. Jesus was so forgiving, Krishna was so confident, Ram was a ‘maryada purshottam’, you too will become forgiving , emanate confidence and observe all 'maryada'.

Through the radar of the Guru , you will get all the powers to achieve this realization of your self and the Godly qualities within you.